Throwing yourself onto the bed every evening after a stressful day is the thing you enjoy most these days. You may be successful, earning good, own a BMW and a beautiful apartment but your bald forehead may not be shining that way. When you look at the mirror, an unknown agony seems ruling into your eyes. The wrinkles on your cheek crucifies your living. You know you have enough reasons to smile but you don't really want to. You also don't have that courage to weep in the corner because you realize that the weight of the tear drops are too heavy to carry. Well, an attempt to get a fresh breeze in your balcony will indemnify your existence. Now you can see the color of the sky has so much changed. It has been so long since you looked up there. The nature just faded away its colors and you cannot remember what actually it looked like. Sadness rises along with the sun everyday and never sets with it. Your own shadow disappears into the piles of files you play with every day. You don't want to bother remembering those horrible faces yelling on your head all day. Biggest question of faith lies within yourself. Is this the future you were planning to live all your life?
You were busy dreaming your future while the time gave you million keys to explore yourself. You were busy improving your handwriting when your life was drawing wonders for you. You were busy whistling when the nature was dancing in the harmony. While the stars were smiling above your head, you were busy growing up. Those stars seemed so distant because the dreams were right in your head. You were hopefully happy for your future, not for the present. World seemed so grateful with the heavy mark sheet you carry. Everyone was satisfied and so were you. The thing that chained all the lives around was a little hope. Hope for a bright future, that will actually reveal the meaning of life. You knew they will not accept the meaning, destiny will define. Rather they wanted you to define your destiny. You never wondered what will happen 25 years down the line.
Now you start wondering, despite having a successful past, so called childhood, you are not happy enough. You have no courage to stand alone and enjoy the rain. You are worried about the assignment your boss just assigned or about improving your clientele. You are more concerned for the things that will ultimately leave you with just yourself. Fire of agony destroys your self-being. The process will continue till the vigour lets you dance in the innocence of yourself. And a beautiful thing starts, compromise. You start compromising with yourself, after seeing some more shiny heads around. While returning after your so called 10-7 routine, you made it for yourself, those confused emotions boost your confidence. I'm not the only one, heart says. Some faces are sad, some are confused, one doesn't know what is happening with his life, many have no idea, very few are happy, probably pretending. You keep walking with the throng that don't know the destiny. And when the drove disappears somewhere into that throng of abandoned hopes, you will find yourself standing alone and waiting someone to take you away from this world when your own shadow ceases to be your friend.
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